The first thing I’d have to tell you, is that I missed you.
I know that seems like a weird thing to say, given that I’ve been back to blogging pretty much everyday since the Fall. But it’s true nonetheless. I’ve missed you. I’ve missed weaving the words that are pulling on my heart strings into things that I want you to hear. Things that you might need to hear right at that very moment. Things that I just might need to hear too.
I’ve missed talking to you.
Really talking to you. And not just in that life is moving a million miles a minute, here are some things I need to announce, and then we’re on to the next post sort of way. But more in that, “I wish we were sitting down over coffee so that I could look you in the eye when I tell you that what you’re doing here matters,” sort of way. That hey, just the fact that you’re here in this world trying harder than you know…it really matters. And just so you know, you’re doing just fine. That sort of way.
Somewhere along the line, I got away from talking to you. I think somewhere along the line, maybe I forgot how. Maybe we’ve all forgotten how to slow down long enough to really talk to each other. And our words get lost in a sea of square posts and newsletter subject lines that are short enough to be interesting. And still we continue on, thumb scrolling our way right on into losing each other.
So I guess I just need you to know that I’ve missed you. I’ve missed this thing we used to do here where we somehow managed to find each other despite the distance of our computer screens. I’ve missed telling you about our life, and hearing about yours too. And for me, that’s going to change. I feel like we’re coming into a season of Spring where we can finally shake the dust off. The same dust that settled with the new brand being done and with the scary conferences being over. I feel new breath in my lungs. I feel like the air has never been clearer. And I feel like I’m finally stepping into a place where I have something to say again. And I’m just so glad I have the chance to say it to you.
So if you and I were sitting down across from each other in a coffee shop, here is what I would say. I’m afraid of the big things ahead, but even more afraid of never chasing them. I sometimes worry that I’ll never get around to doing the really scary, important things I was called to do in the time when I was called to do them. I worry about that a lot actually. About life just passing me by without me ever once stepping up and saying “here” when the role is called. But I also know that everything happens in its time and in its season. And there is a time to grow right where you’re planted.
Then I’d want to tell you, as I looked you right in the eye, you have come so much farther than you’re giving yourself credit for. And you have a habit of being way too hard on yourself. You don’t even realize the light that you are for other people. And you might not ever know just how many hearts you’ve already helped stitch up.
I would tell you that a new Spring is coming.
I would tell you to breathe in the crisp March air.
I would tell you to shake off your own version of winter and the season of hiding you’ve been living in. Because the world might just be waiting for you to bloom.
And when you do, yours are the colors that are going to set the world on fire.
Yea…I’ve missed talking to you like that.