I cried a lot.
Someone asked me at one of the Spread the Loves, how do you dig yourself out of a mountain of work when just breathing feels like a burden? And this is what I said to them. I cried. A LOT. I would push my head back and close my eyes to the popcorn ceiling, as fat tear drops streaked their way down my cheek bones and formed puddles in my earlobes below. Then I”d rest my throbbing forehead on my desk and watch those teardrops paratrooper to the floor, while my own heartbeat pounded in my ears. I would pace, I would pray, I would silently sob. And then when that was over, I would sit back down and do the work.
Last year, Justin & I took three times as many weddings as we’ve ever had before. It was one of the most amazing years of our lives. And… one of the hardest. Not fully knowing what we were getting ourselves into, we quickly got behind. And as anyone who has ever been behind can tell you, behind is not a static thing. You don’t start off 5 things back and stay 5 things back. It snowballs. Like a St. Bernard digging you out of an avalanche, it snowballs. And pretty soon, 5 turns into 10 turns into 20 turns into 24. 24 shoots back. And a mountain of work upon us that makes just breathing feel like a burden.
But here’s the thing…you sit back down and you do the work. And with a sandbox shovel in an avalanche, you dig yourself out.
Dear bloggity blog world, I can now tell you that this blog is officially current! A-MEN!!! And just in time too, because our 2010 season kicked off yesterday with a bang. And because in so many ways I want 2010 to be the year that’s all about living in the moment, I plan to keep it that way! To never let it get behind again. This year we are taking even more weddings than we did last year, and I want to share all of them with you….as well as the moments in between that make up our lives…just as they happen. To live in that moment. To love in that moment. As you can see from the photo below, I’m not usually too good at taking direction (because I’m usually the one giving it! :) But for just this once, this is a direction I am happy to take.
So be sure to tune in later today for our very first wedding of the year!
Here’s to living in the moment,
** I also just want to say a huge thanks to all of our 2009 clients for allowing us to do what we love and for bearing with us while we figured it all out. You have the patience of saints and I love each and every one of you. Thank you for making our dream possible every single day.